the break up

so its offically official. me and Lasaan our no longer a couple. i know we aren't because i feel like something is missing in my life, like ive been robbed of complete happiness. i could have been alright, i was use to this, but he tricked me, showed me the other side, and now i can't go back to what i use to be, i hated her, she was lonely, unhappy, and depressed. i used him as a crutch i think and now im left to go on on my own , im barely making it. why shouldi be crying? why should i be sad? its for the best he wasn't giving me 100% yet, im the one thats sad and he will go one with his life, its not fair at all. you can never win, either way you always end up getting hurt, all the talk in the world won't make me feel any better. im still in love with him, and it gives me an empty feeling inside, he is going to tell the other girls all about me, and i cant handle that :(